I started this blog with intention. I wanted to be real, transparent, and open. I also decided to write down blog ideas and have items prepared to share with you. All of the ones I haven't posted yet have started to feel generic and not me (yes, even after only a couple of weeks).
I am depressed and I am having a depressed day. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to curl up and cover my face and not come out again till tomorrow. When you have a mental illness, this is your reality. These days used to be my normal, but now they are few and far between. To be honest, it’s almost harder this way! I know that’s a lie, but when you go so long without these days, it’s so difficult to see the other side.
I feel overwhelmed, unsure, and completely out of my element. I have to remind myself: This is temporary. This is not your reality. This is not what defines you. This is not who you are.
(Sings Know Who You Are from Moana)
If you ever feel this way, I want to leave you with some things I do that are a little bit different from a typical day.
Make a DONE list instead of a To-Do list
To-Do lists make me feel like an utter failure on depressed days. I don’t do anything that I need to. I don’t feel accomplished, only more overwhelmed.
Write down what you did for the day. My done list looks like this:
Took a bath
Got to work
Scheduled Appointment with Doctor
Do what you know you need, not what you feel.
It’s difficult to do what we need when we’re in that place, but it’s necessary.
Eat, get up and move around (from bed to couch is a start), breathe, add those things to your done list, drink a big glass of water, put on some oils to help with your emotions, and see how you feel.
Feelings are fickle. We can’t act on feelings, we have to act on behaviors (I’ll expand on this more later). Make a decision to do something you know you need to even though you don’t feel like it.
Let someone know
I text my husband, or my sister, or my best friend that I’m just having an off day. Something about it helps that someone else knows the state of mind I’m in. They get it.
If you don’t have someone like that, message me! I’ll be thinking of you.
Give yourself grace
This is temporary. You won’t feel this way forever.
You are not defined by your mental illness. It may be a part of you, but it is not your identity.
Listening to: Autumn Acoustic on Spotify
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